Fx-Man(Ghost)

Good.....bye

2010-06-27T23:23:00.003+08:00

As of now, i officially, personally declare this blog dead.
I always thought it'd be cool to have a blog but i guess time moves on. It was cool in the first place. Having a place to tell my tales. I never really cared much what people had to say about what i posted. I just posted coz i wanted to tell them that "yes, this happened in my life".
But i can't keep this up. I had great fun blogging. Now only god knows if i'll ever blog again. However, i won't delete this place for it holds to many dear memories. Being the nostalgic person that i am, i leave these archives for you to read upon.
Other than that, this is a sad conclusion. I will miss you dear friend. We had a good run

Inspiration

2010-06-03T15:18:00.001+08:00

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others -
Marianne Williamson

rise again...rise again

2010-05-20T22:02:00.001+08:00

F: It's been a while since you last came..
Me: Oh shut up you. The only reason that kept me from you is coz i have nothing to say. But now i DO!

Hey! Finally i'm back in this blog. Hmm...How long has it been. Oh wait, i can check my previous post but then again, i'd have to open a new tab, check my posts and just so that i can look at the date. Oh well, rather not.

Ok, since it's been a while, i'm kinda rusty with the whole speaking-my-mind thing. Well, the only reason i haven't been here so often is because....i don't exactly have anything to say to you people. I feel like my posts are wasted. Whatever. I'm here, i'm reading it. That matters because you can't expect people to believe you when you don't even believe in yourself. Take that! Kyah!

Right then...Ah...Yes. Breaking up was rough. Definitely did not live to my expectation. Honestly speaking, i was really expecting to be slapped. Haha, call me crazy or whatever but yea. I really think i deserved to be slapped by her. Can't believe i even begged her to slap me. But she didn't so that's good of her. Can't imagine what woulda happened if she did.

The other break up went slightly better. By better i mean it felt more like a real break up. Not that i was attached to her but i didn't want her to have false hope you know. Ok, so she accused me of things i'm not guilty of but so what? I still got my point through. Oh, did i mention? 2 broken hearts in a week. Gosh, i'm mean.

What would the world be like without meanies right? There wouldn't be any nice people!

Titans rule!

2010-04-11T20:24:00.002+08:00

Clash of the titans is the bomb!!!
Go watch it. 3D or not, it's nice either way.

Ok...Soccer on Saturday was superb! Although we lost, i felt that i gave a good performance. Yes!!
Yeobo gave me a cupcake with icing which she bought at the icing corner. Wait, issit? Ah...Anyway, thanks honey!
Practice for BB will continue as usual and it's kinda frustrating coz i can't come up with anything for the new song. Hmm...Ne-yo said that if you try so hard to outdo yourself, you'll lose your creativity despite your efforts. Or something like that. Ok, so i'll just let the song flow and then i'll come up with sth. Yes...

Broke broke broke.
Damn job isn't paying me enough. Hey, i follow the rules, i do my work but the hours are soo.....Blegh....Not enough. Maybe i should get a second job....NO!!! No way am i gonna lose my life working. Argh...Rich kids must have it easy.

1,2,3, Rain!

2010-04-04T21:29:00.002+08:00

Playing in the rain couldn't have been messier.
Ok, so we had to perform for the ministers for this sports event and then it started raining. So, we marched and played in the rain. Oh, what an experience.
On a good note, we spent the previous night sleeping. Oh no, wait. That was only me. The guys were playing tai ti the whole night. Crazy asses.

Ok...Weekly summary, i need to cut down on sugar intake. So starting Monday, no more sugared drinks except at home which is my milo. mmm....milo..... Other than that, i'll make sure i have a water bottle around at all times and filled with mineral water..AT ALL TIMES. I'm wondering just how much my liver can take before it really fails. Hopefully, it won't come to that. Yea, start protecting my insides now.

Looking forward to next week really. First of all because there will be less practice. Secondly, will be teaching the new kids at the gym and lastly, CLASH OF THE TITANS!
Oh yea, life is good

2010-03-28T21:26:00.002+08:00

What yeobo got me, what my friends got me, and just plain Patrick star.
Ok, You know that feeling where you've worked so hard and finally you're being rewarded for it? Yea, satisfaction. Honest;y speaking, i'm satisfied with what BB has achieved. It's starting to feel like i've practically been living with these people all my life. For example, i've been seeing them almost everyday the past month. Can't really remember a day without them. Ah...but i love it. We eat, talk, sleep and have fun together. That's practically family right?

High time

2010-03-22T23:59:00.002+08:00

Remember that time?
I love nostalgia. Nostalgic.

Wassup people of the keyboards!! Haven't been bloggin in a while but i'll try to come back anytime i can to update this place of anything that happens in my life. That is if i see it fit to be told :)

I love love love Baracuda Batucada. Drumzout auditions were a blast though i think we could've done better, it was one performance that i'll remember. Of course i would, it's an audition right? Haha. Oh and the Drunken Flowers did a spectacular job with their song. Especially Eugene, OI! OI! OI! Ok, inside joke. Sorry.

To sum up what's been happening in my life, it's band band band all the way. Even on Sundays! How great is that?! I don't mind absenting myself from soccer coz it's sort of... I dunno... unpleasant? Anyway, the gigs are keeping me busy and so are practices so yea...

I hope you guys have had an enjoyable holiday. Be weary though...School is starting soon!

Aye

2010-03-11T22:17:00.005+08:00

Camp has been tough.
Ah yea, BB camp was from Sunday to Wednesday meaning 4 whole days of Baracuda bitterness and sweetness. Though 4 days may seem like too much time for camp but strangely, i crave to spend more time with my cca. It's coz i love it so much and yea, my great friends are there.

Speaking of great friends, i wanna thank my great friends for comforting me during camp when i broke down. The last time i cried was god-knows-when and when i finally did, it was the most wonderful thing. Ok, besides knowing that i am indeed human and have a heart, i also found out that those people who were there for me really cared for me. It wasn't because i was stressed or anything but instead because of the realization that my friends love me. Aww....I'm so touched.

N-E-Way, i haven't been in the best of physical fitness. I haven't been exercising, eating right and what not. Ah...
Whatever..

And yeobo... I miss you!

No happy birthday

2010-03-05T23:37:00.004+08:00

Omo...
This year's celebrations weren't good.
They were freaking awesome!!!!
Omo. Ecstatic 18th birthday of mine. One heck of a day. WOOOOOOO!!
First i got my birthday surprise from yeobo, whose plan failed miserably, but gosh, i was too happy to see her. The time spent with yeobo at the station was so....priceless. Ah...Thank you yeobo for the present.

Next was time out with nostalgic friends. Hell yeah! A birthday celebration with Suhaidi, Fadhil, Boon Kiat, Raj, Jacob, Muhaimin, Wei Sheng and Syafiq. Ah i love these guys. They bought me a cake and made me flowers. Yea, made me flowers. Oh and the cake was the best damn cake i've ever had! Ah...did i mention i love these guys? It's been a while since i've gotten a cake for my birthday. I really felt like crying but i couldn't. I don't know why.

Maybe the highlight of the day, spotted Michelle Chia and Michelle Cheong from mediacorp at Vivo City and Suhaidi's fan-boy instincts took over. He requested them for a picture and told them it was my birthday. The best part was two hawwwwwwt ladies wishing me happy birthday and there's a photo to keep. Weeee!!!

Ah, i'd like to thank Suhaidi the most for picking the best time to go out for a reunion. Of all my years with him, not once have i been out with him till today. And of all days, he picked one hell of a day for an outing. Thank you fatty!!!! Thank you thank you thank you!!!

Yeobo, i love you! Thank you for the present. Sorry i ruined your surprise though but i really really really appreciate your effort on doing everything that you've done for me. Happy month-aversary!! Saranghaeyo!!!

Brentha, i'd like to thank you for really remembering my birthday. You really are a true friend despite what we've been through. Yea, it has been a while since we last talked and oh...i'm starting to miss you already!

Hajjar, i know i've been really rough on you but for you to wish me was really something. I don't expect you to forgive me but thank you. Thank you for caring.

Everyone else who've wished me, i thank you all. I never thought i'd celebrate a birthday like this. i wanna cry but i can't, i dunno why. Ah, i'm so touched. Thank you thank you thank you!

Esplanade

2010-02-24T23:42:00.002+08:00

Ah...i'm disappointed in myself for disappointing someone.
I'm sorry if i don't remember certain things. I am getting forgetful these days. It's weird coz i used to remember things more than i do now. It must be cramming all the facts into my brain that the old memories are being forced out subconsciously to make room for new one. Oh...my...god....That's bad.

Esplanade today with dearest and oh, she's disappointed in me. I wonder about things though. Why get disappointed? It's because people expect something from some people and when they don't get it, they feel let down. Ah...I know the feeling. I'm so sorry darling.

It's not like me to blog about my daily activities so let's go blog about something else.

You ever felt like you were meant to do something extraordinary?
Quoted from heroes, one of the best tv series in my opinion. Of course, i like spider-man.

Ah..I need to get fit, not lose weight but get fit. So what i'm saying is that i don't want to lose weight, i'm skinny as i am so i need to gain muscles without the need to ingest protein. I never really liked protein. Last time i took it, i gained so much skin or at least i think that's what it did. Ah...Exercise!!

Till then muppets, good night!!

Not yet

2010-02-09T22:35:00.004+08:00

Music: T-ara - Like the beginning.
Blegh...Exams are next week and this semester will be over by then. I haven't blogged recently because i really have nothing to say. At all. To you people. Who are reading this. Nothing. But now i do!

It's amazing how easy a test can turn out when you really did your homework and study. Of course, if the teacher specified the tested topics, that would've already helped. But! a teacher can tell you all you need to know but if the student doesn't want to apply himself, then god help him.

I've been really religious lately. Ok, not really.

Spider-man, spider-man, does whatever a spider-can.
Oh yea, i gotta have my doze of spidey. He just rocks! Come on, like you guys don't have a hero to look up to. That begs the question really. What is a hero? A guy who does the right thing out of his own will, not expecting a reward, defeat the bad guy and then win the girl? I don't think it's really that simple. Ok, let's see. Winning the girl, scratch that one out. Defeat the bad guy, scratch that out. Doing the right thing, i don't see how that makes you a hero.

Alright, if you save a life then you're a hero? Doctors must really hear "You're my hero!" a lot. Neh...open to debate!

De-stress, de-stress. Stop! No more de-stressing otherwise i won't have enough good stress to help me out. You didn't know? Ok, to me, there's positive stress and negative stress. Positive stress helps you get prepared for what's to come because somehow, i'll get things done. Negative stress is the stress you don't need in your life. Yea, that graying hair of yours, that's not good. Otherwise, you can always try hair dye.

There's this amazing guy.
He cooks, he cleans, cuts my hair, makes money, takes care of a family, drives, wise etc etc.
He's my dad! Love you dad!

Lastly, i look forward to my honeymoon. Woo!

Mark this day

2010-02-08T16:01:00.002+08:00

5th of February, 2010.
The day i found peace with my one and only.
I couldn't describe the feeling really, just that i was very calm and happy. I wasn't panicking or excited. Just plain happy. Thank you tea!

Ok, Jungle man/terrorist is spying on me and reading as I type.

Hmm...ok (:

Back from the grave

2010-01-31T22:21:00.003+08:00

Crawling back to this blog which shall remain my sanity for eternity.
Sorry that i haven't been blogging for a while. You can't blog when you don't have much to say or don't really feel like saying anything at all. Either way, it's good to be back to my retreat.

Past few days have been hectic. Can't say that i've had my fair share of sleep coz of the assignments and...Actually, i don't exactly recall why i don't get enough rest. It's just a natural wonder that i get tired from doing nothing. This body clock of mine will never ever tell the right time.

Summary of Saturday. Watched 2 movies in one day. Weee.... The first being Avatar in 3-D(Like finally i've watched it) and the second is Brothers starring Tobey Maguire, Jake Gyllenhall and Natalie Portman. Bravo, it was a hell of a thrill ride. After that to Toa Payoh and then to Esplanade library. ->Glutton's bay to have my first meal of the day at 9pm. Yea, i didn't have breakfast or lunch for the whole day so imagine my pain.

There was an incident where at least 20 girls ran past me towards the Mandarin Oriental. The reason being that SHINee was in town. Ok, if you hadn't noticed, SHINee is a hit boy group in South Korea consisting of members Onew, Jonghyun, Key, Minho, and Taemin. Their unique style in the music industry have allowed them to stand out from most boy groups. Most noticeably their skinny jeans trend from their song "Juliette". They are currently in Singapore to perform at the Esplanade for some drama soundtrack thing which i'm not so clear about so yea. That's about right.

To my soccer mates, I truly apologise for not being there this past month. Often i am busy with my cca and cannot commit to your saturdays. I admit that i have been missing out on a lot of practices lately and i apologise. One other hindrance is that my ankle has yet to fully recover and i worry that i cannot put in a 100% everytime i come down. Once again, i apologise

nigh

2010-01-22T23:34:00.001+08:00

It's about time i updated this place.
Technically, i think it's because Kar Wei inspired me to not blog about everything that happens in my life. Well yea, you can't expect me to.

Ok...Finally watched Cloudy with a chance of meatballs and UP. Great movies. Thanks Lionel for the movies.

Hmm..Ok, guys be prepared for this. I won't be updating much mostly coz i don't feel like it.
Take care people!

Origin

2010-01-09T23:25:00.001+08:00

I met the originator of the word "boomz" today.
Well yea.

Had dinner with family on Friday at Pizza hut. Nothing like family dinner right.
NP open house was a blast but BB was seriously stretched. 3 shows in a 3 hours span. Furthermore, it's not like we are performing at the same place. We needed to go here, there and everywhere. But i enjoyed the experience nonetheless.
Not much to update about, yea? So off i go. Enjoy the rest of the weekend

while

2010-01-05T18:57:00.003+08:00

It feels like it's been a while since my last post.
Really, it does.

I've been under the belief that the more emotions you have, the harder it will be for you when your heart breaks. So what did i do? Guess you could say that i've an empty space for feelings of loss. Someone dies, others cry. Hardly is that the case for me. I've never cried at a funeral. Ok, so maybe because i wasn't so close to them which could've been a contributing factor. But yes, i don't think i'll ever cry. It's kinda sad to know that you can't cry. There's this feeling that i get where people will say "Have you no heart?" or something like that. Can't blame me that i don't cry for such things. Yawning doesn't count.

You know that saying where the grass is always greener on the other side? Well, have you ever thought that maybe to someone on that grass patch, the grass is greener here? My point is that you shouldn't look at the rich and be envious. Instead, look at the poor and be thankful. How i've been trying to see this alternate direction because there is much to appreciate once you know where your life is headed or where you are right now.

Gotta go, someone's calling

hello January

2010-01-01T20:55:00.001+08:00

1st post on the first month of the year.
Don't think i've ever done this before. Hur.. Anyway, year ended celebrations are over and life is back to normal. Hmmm... If i were to have a resolution, i'd have been doing it already not thinking of one right now. So yea.

May you have a good year and good luck to you all

moonshine

2009-12-27T01:10:00.003+08:00

"If sun tanning makes you darker, moon tanning makes you farer" - Charles Lim.
Nice one Charles. Haha!

I almost forgot that blogging doesn't require people to actually read the blog. Actually, that's kinda my perspective. This is an outlet for me to speak my mind, share ideas and stuff so you don't have to understand or like it. Just appreciate that i put effort into this blog. Thank you.

New year, new year. Oh how people have dreaded the days until this date. I'm at a junction of thoughts right now. Some part of me says that "Oh yea, new year! Let's celebrate, watch fireworks!" while the other says "New year...so?". So i'm wondering, which should i listen to. There's this logic that i think sounds about right. If you wanna spend the new year alone, you won't really mind but then from another point of view, it's sad to see someone so lonely. But then, if you were to go out and enjoy, then you'll see so many different people having fun in a different way which really makes you want to be part of it. So here's the problem; There are so many kinds of 'celebration'. You can't possibly be part of everything.

That would take a god-like ability to be everywhere at once. Hey hey, that reminds me of Jumper. Nice movie. I'd like to teleport too. Or...There's Jimmy Madrox. You don't know him? Remember that scene in X3 where that guy duplicates himself? You don't know X3?

Hmm...hmmm.. Commitments are one thing. Greed gets in the way. It really begs the question of whether man can really be satisfied. The rich get richer. Want more money, more expensive cars, more jewels and diamonds and priceless minerals. Even all the nonsense that they don't really need. White elephants. If they're so rich, why not donate to the poor. What's that? They're still rich? They're not doing enough.

BumbleBee FC is running in the wrong direction. I think. It's got the foundation right but the attendance and commitment is seriously slacking. It's pathetic. At least i was there.

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stop..rewind

2009-12-23T02:13:00.003+08:00

Sometimes i get depressed.
Come on, it's a human factor. Everyone has their down days. I don't know specifically why but i can target some things that can bring me down. Sometimes you just sit down, look into nothingness and just ponder.

What is life?
What is my purpose?
Is my future destined the way it is?
Does anything matter anymore?

I can go on and on but i won't coz you get the idea. To be honest, i'll call myself a lost individual. I don't know what i'm chasing. I don't know what i want and i pretty sure as hell that i don't know about my future. Wife, kids, income, health and all that crap. It just makes me wonder a lot more. So much so that i get tired of it and just want to kick back, relax and enjoy myself. Sipping milo all day.

I don't know what's been going on lately but it's being a bother to me to not know things. I just wanna be happy. I don't need expensive cars or jewelry or even fancy clothes. Just put me on some place that provides me with necessities, not wants and i'll live. Oh yea, i'm prepared to be a one man show. No strings attached right. It's great.

Hmm...yea. Isolation. That can make you go insane.....or does it?
I'd like to know what it's like living all by yourself with no one to talk to. No communication or what-so-ever with anyone. My prediction is that it's gonna be lonely for the first few weeks and then you'll get used to it. Guess its good for those talkative people. Huh...huh..huh.huh......huh. Talking to yourself.

That's so cool talking to yourself. You're not always right but your other self is which is still equivalent to you which still means you're right! Haha! Genius!

Sore

2009-12-21T23:15:00.000+08:00

Oh my aching body.
It's been a hell of a weekend despite the common tests ending on Friday. The reason mainly being the Christmas gig at Ngee Ann city. Oh my, playing there was a new experience and i liked it. It's been a while since our last gig but this was truly something coz it was the first busking session by the guppies which was cool. Haha.

Oh yea, the common tests are over and holidays are here. 2 weeks break that is. I'm gonna go look for a job because the school gym is starting to get really sucky and i don't like it. The pay comes in late, limited working hours but it's a nice job though.

Christmas is around the corner so i hope you guys have a great time.

random girl

2009-12-14T20:01:00.001+08:00

Look there, to the left.
That's her. The random girl. Oh how i've missed her. Well, just someone i thought i'd share with you people.
No KarWei. Not vulgarities. Those are part of English, i think. I'm talking about grammar and spelling stuff. Anyway, back to common tests. Math paper tomorrow

stumble bumble

2009-12-13T15:35:00.002+08:00

I'm suddenly tired of living.
So much to accomplish, so many requirements and too much time on my hands. Hmph, i must be rich.

Seoul'd out concert was freaking awesome! Ok, so the line-up was miso music, the drawing show, some break dance crew, Ji Su Lee, Mario, T-max, F.T.Island and lastly, the Brown Eyed Girls. Damn it was awesome. I liked all of them strangely. Some lucky person got a personalized t-shirt from the drawing show while some of the people at the front got great Ga-in posed shot. Haha, but anyway, like the quote from the drawing show. "It's not the end ....but the process of doing something that you learn most from" or something like that which is true by the way.

I met this girl in the crowd. I thought she was Korean the minute she spoke because she really spoke Korean. But then, her English was so fluent that she couldn't possibly have been Korean. Ok, maybe but what were the chances. We ended up standing together during the show and yea, i enjoyed her company. Ezan is gonna be pissed reading this. Sadly, i didn't get her contact not even her name but nonetheless, it was worthwhile talking to her. How do you say it..Flirt was it?

Lastly, i'm tired of the abuse of English in Singapore. Be ashamed people. Be very ashamed.
Ok, back to studying.

Trash

2009-12-08T19:57:00.002+08:00

Finally cleared my links of dysfunctional links.
Or blogs that are never updated. So why should i lead people to places that waste their oh-so-precious time.

Nice atmosphere here....NOT!!
I realize that i don't have many stories to tell. I guess i don't like telling stories though i enjoy reading them. I'm not some blabber mouth who goes "oh you know the.." or "that time i....." and "i heard the.....". I don't do that. Even if i do, it's not dramatic and i refrain myself from doing so. Probably that's why i'm so boring.

People walk funny these days. It's hard to see a woman walking so nicely like super models. Ok, maybe not up to that standard but at least walk decently. They walk as though they have something in there preventing them from closing their legs. Guys, needless to say. However they walk, i don't care.

Make it a habit to talk to yourself everyday. It helps you clear self doubt or at least blind you.

reload topic

2009-12-06T02:55:00.003+08:00

Khairi's blog sounds so emo.
Kind of like an emo area.

Well, the weekend started great you know. I meet new people. Lost my job and i get paid. Isn't life just great.

Ok. Hmm.................i'm really racking my brains to figure of something to say. To quote a friend of mine, he said it's easy for us bloggers to talk about stuff. I find that true to an extent.

I'm starting to think that i'm addicted to facebook. Well, mostly because of the conversations not the games or anything. Seriously, i don't know why i go there. There's nothing that interests me there except a few things like pictures and videos but the games are so boring.

Ugh...Drinking 8 glasses of water everyday is becoming a chore. Gulping down itches my throat somehow. I thought it was supposed to be good for us. Ahhhh, heck. Let's just do things that we believe to be righteous and true. Follow blindly right and out of fear, we believe.

I wonder if there are people who blog as i do. As in, not mention so much about their lives and just bring up some topic that's discussion worthy. You really have to wonder about the number of 'good' blogs out there.

Get started on your studies people and you might just pass the common test

keep walking

2009-12-03T20:05:00.002+08:00

It feels like you walked out of my life.
I wanna try to love you but you're not letting me. Like you're pushing me away. It's almost sickening to know that you don't want me. But i've tried and if you insist, i'll stop caring. I'll let go these feelings of mine. What's the point in trying when i know i can't have you. ):

Whoever remembers Secondhand Serenade? I do. Listening to "twist of my story" and "like a knife". They're supposed love....ok, serenade songs i think. Whatever it is, it just made my day. Sometimes you gotta go back to your roots.

Oh yea, that brings up a new topic for the day. No Make-up day! Haha. I wonder what happens when for one day, just one day, people don't put on their make-up. That means no mascara, no eye-liners, no powder or whatever. Ok, i'm not familiar with make-up, which explains. I'm probably guessing that people will be awkward at first because they are so used to covering their face and hiding behind their 'masks'. So, if on this day they do not use make-up, i think it's gonna be something interesting. Remember that pretty girl? Well, she might not be so pretty without her make-up. If she still is, it could be natural beauty. How nice.

So you see where i'm going with this? Please make my wish come true someone. I'm not wishing for money or love and whatever nonsense. Just for people to go make-upless for one day. Please...

i'm awake

2009-12-01T00:01:00.001+08:00

Finally, a chance to update.
Hellof people, been a long time huh. Hmm...It's been a while and now i can't think of what to say.
Baracuda Week was great! Practice, gig, practice, gig. Haha, really enjoyed the week.
E-learning week sucked as usual. Some things that i couldn't manage to do.
As for the rest of the days till now, i've been pretty much ok.

I'm feeling lonely at times. So who do i turn to? Bob! My old friend. Bob is special in a way that he's smarter than me, always has the answers and looks exactly like me. Astonishing that your conscience is the smarter one. Not you. Say hello Bob.

tears of...

2009-11-24T22:57:00.001+08:00

I envy people who cry.
But i also pity them. Sadly, i can't cry. I don't know why but i'm just not able to. Please, don't try anything.
I feel like crying because i'm lost in assignments. Haiz... So many to do but time is really stretched thin. It's almost unbearable.

Help me!!

odd news

2009-11-20T00:23:00.001+08:00

Finally, a good one.
I wouldn't say i'm satisfied but it was one of the better ones. Good job guys but seriously, it can be improved. It's almost there but not yet. Again, good job Baracuda Batucada.

E-learning week is pathetic. Ok, it's my fault for not actually doing the given assignments but i seriously do not like the whole homework on the internet thing. It's irritating me. I can't say that i haven't done anything but neither am i half way done. Mainly because i have been very busy with Baracuda. Yea, the whole week with them. But i like it, it's nice.

Ok, to wrap it up, i'll still be busy until school re-opens but i think i'll still be busy then.
Enjoy the coming weekend people!

settling dusts

2009-11-15T02:33:00.002+08:00

Everything seems so clear.
Or is it?
Soccer went well today. Even though we played on a very pathetic piece of land, we enjoyed ourselves. After that, the team talk and discussion and all. Then i had dinner with dear mom and my nephew. Mmmm....Crabs....

But who are you...
I'm having some thoughts now. I call it thought bombs when so many thoughts are running through your head at one time. It can really make you go "UGH!". I think i can safely say that there's an insurmountable difference between the pros and cons of a relationship. Very safe to say.

And what's next...
I gotta get my assignments done and e-learning week is coming. Yes, that means i get to stay home for lectures and sleep. Haha, Ok. No! I'm not going to sleep. I AM gonna read up on my tutorials and finish up any assignments. This week is definitely NOT for slacking. Oh yea, even Baracuda isn't taking a break. Or is it?

Rethink

2009-11-12T00:39:00.002+08:00

It's not that i'm dreading the days.
My emotions are kinda mixed these days. The mood swings are hated but that's the way i gotta live. I mean, what else can i do. It's kinda like water. I may appear calm but actually, a wave is forming from far away. Hmm.. If you can relate to that, good. Coz that's how i feel right now and it may very well change soon.

Recap of the closing week.
In dire need to catch up on math and analogue electronics. Engineering materials as well. The subjects are being bombarding me with facts and information then sprinkling that with tutorials and e-learning. I can handle this, one step at a time. It may not be the easiest road and it may take an unexpected turn but i'll make it. I hope.

To everyone, hope you had a nice day.

beg to differ

2009-11-10T22:50:00.002+08:00

I'm hallucinating or issit thorough thinking?
Can't get it off.

Hmm.. I need to organize myself better and seriously stop spending. Any kind soul willing to treat me to meals everyday? Didn't think so. I'm not broke, i'm poor. And i know the minute i start spending, i'm gonna regret it in a few days time. Damn this society for the use of money. They should've come up with something better. Then again, to think about it. Issit fair to gamble? Why do lucky people get to win while the poor can't? Dammit.

On a happy note, oh wait. There hasn't been one.

Seriously messed up man. I can't seem to feel happy. Whenever i do feel happy, it seems faked. I don't fake it but i certainly feel that way. Why? Why is this so? I'm losing my mind Kar Wei! I mean, for all you know. I look like a guy without problems. That's because there are no problems but the problem with that is that i don't know the problem that's causing my problems. get it?

I'm not stressed out. I'm not overworked. I'm just feeling moody at times. Is this what having periods feels like? I wonder...

I should stop wondering.

Ashes in the snow

2009-11-09T02:10:00.002+08:00

Pure as snow.
It's been 3 days since Thursday and i'm still very very deep in thought about that. I can't seem to forget and it's flashing through my mind like lightning during a thunderstorm. The goosebumps i get every time it ends. I can't forget. Can't forget. Sorry Hajjar.

Contemplate this, contemplate that. Why am i even blogging at an unearthly hour. Oh yea, that's right. I can't sleep. Well, i was for a good 30 minutes.

Issues, issues, issues. Ever wondered what would've happened if we did discover fire. Would we still be living in this urban jungle with computers and gas stoves? Would we still be creating math equations and solving physic-limited problems? Would we still be driving around in cars? Would we?

I took a very good guess that we would have taken the primitive path of evolution. Like the animals and beasts before us, we would have evolved. Evolved to be the efficient hunters that we are not today. Gone will be the gun trotting hunters and spear wielding warriors. Dawn a new age...

Well, if that wasn't insightful, i don't know what is. It got me pondering for a well 30 minutes or so. But still, i can't get Thursday out of my mind. Pfft.

Elapsed

2009-11-05T18:04:00.001+08:00

At atrium with Ahmad and Kar Wei right now.
Ahmad is so hard working man. Kar Wei. Umm..He looks like an uncle with his glasses on.
Nothing to do right now. Debbie is keeping me company anyways, so yeah.

waiting list

2009-11-01T00:32:00.002+08:00

I'm in love.
Her name is Baracuda Batucada. Wish i could spend more time with her.
Ok, before i start, personal fitness is important. I don't know how much i can stress upon this but yea. Get off your couch/seat/corner and work it.

A guy once asked me. Why blog? I could've came up with so many reasons and he would've still said that blogging is nonsense and a waste of time. Right now, i can only say that it's my pleasure to blog. Someone else said that blogging was an invasion of people's privacy. Well, depending on the situation. If you reveal a lot about yourself and the next moment people know where you live, that's being irresponsible. Always, always blog responsibly. Be mindful of others. Ok, actually i really don't understand why he said it's an intrusion on someone's privacy.

Off that topic and here we are, today. Education and pleasure. Which would you choose? Ok, so on one hand, i have my love and on the other, i have studies. So if i marry them together, hey presto! I get time management. Ok, time to buck up on studies. You can do it!

On a side note, i spent $0 for a fantastic lunch.

Self defined

2009-10-29T00:07:00.002+08:00

I look like the kind of guy who doesn't have problems.
Mainly, that's because i don't. Drama in my life is very minimal. No backstabbing, bitching, fights and what not. I find all this to be nonsense. Backstabbers work only when you turn your back on them. Bitching...Hmm...Why would i? Fights...I don't want to fight, i rarely do. In fact, never got into a fight since primary 4 maybe? Good huh?

How would i define myself. Personality wise, i admit that i am attracted to women with assets but it's a natural instinct. I can't do anything about that unless i turn gay which i'm definitely not planning on. So how is a guy supposed to get a girlfriend when he's so god damned shallow? Straight forward invites have certainly had their moments but in this country, it's hard to say.

I kind of find it haunting that i'm so comfortable with being single. When taking a partner into account, i have to listen to problems and stories. Personally, i'd give you one advice about your problems. You will always find a way to solve it, just relax. You won't get any answer by complaining about it. And that's another part. I seriously do not like people who.... Ok, to say the least, i'm very patient about everything. People just don't see it very often. Whatever crap and nonsense you get, you just gotta accept it. Ain't no way around it unless you create more crap.

Hmm...Why am i saying all this? Am i too worked up? No, i don't want to be worked up. Hmm... Calm down man, it's gonna end soon. I'm talking to myself, aren't i?

And for god's sake, be English savvy people!

Bad game

2009-10-27T20:15:00.002+08:00

I'm about to lose it but somehow, i'm calm.
Performance tomorrow, hooray! Let's put on one hell of a show.

Math is screwed up and so is the scientific notebook. MAT has a quiz and i don't know what to study. MMT was alright but it really got me dirty.

Everything else, i'm too lazy to blog about.

Here come the fruits

2009-10-23T23:01:00.003+08:00

Deprived? Not really.
Wednesday's practice truly, sincerely rocked! If we could have practices like that all the time, i think i'd die. After that, i'm really hoping we pull through on Saturday's gig. All the best then Baracuda!

Work has been fun. Compared to holiday sessions, school time shifts rock. You get to talk to people, there's a bit more things to do and you get to see nice and funny things. Haha.

To wrap up the week, it's been very good.
A heck of a first week if you ask me.

Music

2009-10-20T23:01:00.002+08:00

I like the music, like like like the music.
Baracuda meeting was enjoyable to say the least but to know where the band is at the moment, it would be wrong to say that i'm proud of it. No, i shouldn't be proud of it. In fact, almost ashamed. But they say that when you've hit rock bottom, the only way you can go is up. So, no worries. With hard work, i'm very very sure we can make it. Come on people!

The new semester begins alas. I'm very relieved to an extent. Some people are missing but that's okay. A group of 4 is actually a bit easier. You can sit almost anywhere in a canteen. Also the talking is better.

Looking forward to tomorrow's practice, if we are actually gonna play. Word is that it's gonna be a continued session of Monday so yeah. If it is, it's good and not good. Good because we are actually clearing up some junk and not good coz practice is gonna be hindered and we have an upcoming gig and very much to do for god's sake.

Lastly, i'm glad my verbal abuse has gone down. Thank you very much.
Now time to do something about my hair.

Faith is my name

2009-10-16T00:48:00.002+08:00

Is a name really significant or issit just the person that represents it?
My nephew is so cute if only he could be more responsive but i guess i can't expect much from him. He's only 2 months old. Haha. Hmm....Went out with Syafiq and Wei Sheng today for pants alteration. First time doing it but, i seriously think that if i can make my own pants, it would be better. Of course, who doesn't think so.

OmO is a word by the way. Pronounced oh-moh. I'm trying to cut down the use of vulgarities. A very good example would be Kar Wei. Haha. He says chicken and chicken backside. So i'm gonna say OmO. Yay.

Come to think of it, the number of female friends i have is decreasing. It's supposed to be a good thing but it's also a bad thing. Good thing is that i won't be tempted to fall into a relationship. Wait, or is that a bad thing? Anyways, the bad thing is that i'm gonna turn gay sooner or later but i know that's ain't never gonna happen. No damn chance.

Think..Think..Think
Can you really defy the laws of your mind? If you believe something to not exist, will it not exist? So...let's say i find someone irritating but i choose to view him as a decent guy. Wait...No, that's living in ignorance. Haha, ignorance can be a good thing.

I just imagined something a few hours back. What if women had the mentality of men and men had the mentality of women. So women would be the ones doing weightlifting and stuff and wooing the men while the men are being sissy. Haha. Think about that for a minute or so.

Finally, a long post.

Jump start

2009-10-14T22:30:00.002+08:00

We are going down people.
Hmm... BB is definitely gonna hit rock bottom if something isn't done about it.

Wasted

2009-10-12T06:04:00.002+08:00

Money spent.
On what? For what? Why? Beauty? Taxes? Food?

Just finished watching the hurt locker. It's a war movie by the way which really... I don't know. Makes you think twice about enlisting in the army. What is it that compels us into war? Power? Why? Does being the greatest, the strongest mean anything?

Hur hur. My head hurts from this.

Hot spot

2009-10-10T01:48:00.003+08:00

A place isn't interesting unless you make it so.
Hmm...Went to Marina Barrage today to lepak and fly a kite. Haha. Guess that covers that. Ohohoho. My chi ko pe instincts kicked in today. Nice one. I like looking at nice things.

Ok...Honestly, I'm still living in a world where secrets are a bore to me. I don't like secrets neither do i like to be kept from them. Somehow, it doesn't feel right when secrets and drama come together. It just results in a very explosive reaction. Yea, i'm still a kid and i want to enjoy as much non-drama life i have left before converting into it. So yea, cut it out.

Emo hit me today. Like, during my trip back home. Alone. I realized that....hmmm. I don't know how to put this but i think I'd rather stay single throughout my happy years. I hate the thought of comforting and consoling. Listening to problems and what not. Gives me goosebumps. So as you can see, i'm still a kid. Take it easy on me.

I really wanna do whatever the hell i want and no one gets to do or say anything about it.

->Ezan: Come on then. Tomorrow?

Sowoneul malhebwa

2009-10-08T21:27:00.002+08:00

You got your wish Ian SBH.
Hmm...Had the guys over for games at my house today. I want to say that it was fun but it wasn't as much as i thought it would be. I guess it would've been better if we just went out.

Anyway, practicing my rudiments. God...This is taking very long. Total hours for today should be about 2 hours?

Lights out

2009-10-08T06:35:00.002+08:00

If you like clubbing, dance to your mp3 in the toilet.
Hmm, can't say that i hate going to clubs coz i've never actually been to one. People have asked me to come along but so far, i've turned them all down. Why? Coz i gotta pay to dance and enjoy music. Might as well do that at home right? Besides that, no drinking. So i guess there's really no point for me to go to a club/pub.

Ok, i'm sleep deprived right now. I think whenever i'm hyped about Baracuda, i won't be able to sleep. Another good example was before the watermark performance two weeks ago. Ah well, can't do much right now. Maybe coz of the weather? It's freaking warm and...dry? Yea, i'd wake up to sore throats and scramble towards my refrigerator for some water. It's killing me.

Practice went well yesterday. It's nicer yesterday. I don't know. It just felt better. Shake semi quavers today, tomorrow and yesterday. Let's try triplets.

A funny thing that happened yesterday. Not actually funny. Was walking to Chamelon in JP when i saw this very familiar girl in school uniform. Oddly, it was during school hours so shouldn't she have been in school? After pondering for a while, i caught up with her. Haha, her priceless expression when she saw me and when she said goodbye.

That's a wrap.
Hmm....Throat is drying up again.

without tents

2009-10-06T13:13:00.002+08:00

Hello Alyssyah!
Cut the sarcasm Kar Wei.

Ok, haven't been updating coz of camp. Can't blame me for that can you? Haha. Well, Baracuda camp was very much enjoyed. Despite gettung this horrible sore throat, i think i'm enjoying the new voice.

To sum up the camp, it was tiring, fun, enjoyable and something new. I hope this camp has helped us bond. Well, obviously it did.

Hmm...What sucked the most was that the very next day after camp, i had work. Haiz..But now worries coz work is really slack. After that, went to Bras Basah complex to get new drumsticks. Vic Firth of course. Then went to shopping!!..omg. I spent too much but really, thanks for the discount Wei Sheng. Hmm... and then i went to a woman's accessories shop and bought 2 hair bands and a head band. The latter which i lost. Hur hur.

Then came the Ugly Truth, the movie actually. Really enjoyable movie. 3.5/5 stars maybe? Haha, but still, gotta catch it. Dude, what the fuck?

Old

2009-09-24T15:41:00.002+08:00

How i've missed you, old friend.
Nawi has certainly made an impact in my life. The first few times i've talked to him were very awkward. Of course, that was his nature. I remember getting my ass kicked by him. Twice. After that, we just got together. Malay class helped a lot. Haha. I guess what they say is true. The fights you fought with your friends are what make you closer. Well, i'm glad it did.

Ok, moving on. Today is kinda like my off day. Kick back from Baracuda, work and everything else i guess. Started off really great with rain. "No way i'm gonna wake up in this weather", said Fathi as he turned off his alarm. What i planned was to get up early for a morning jog but seeing how the weather was kind to me, i did not. Besides, i gotta repair my shoe first.

Lastly, goodbye.

Merry

2009-09-22T01:48:00.002+08:00

Be merry, be joyful, be forgiving.
I thought those were what fueled Raya. Guess i was wrong. I can't really figure the hype. Ok, you're supposed to celebrate the end of the fasting month. How exactly? I don't know. Bugs the hell outta me.

Anyway, to sum it up, i missed the prayers. Sucks. That's 2 years in a row. Besides that, visits and meetings were less than amusing. You come to the house of others to watch television? I'm sorry. What is that exactly? Celebrating? Being grateful to see each other. Bleh. Sucks.

Well, there's is some good out of it. Thank god for that. Hee (:
And Debbie looks like Soo Young now. How dreamy...

Update

2009-09-14T01:59:00.002+08:00

Gaming sessions are fun.
Whether you win or lose, reap the experience you get and enjoy yourself.

I wonder when they'll send us the results for the exam. I hope i did well. No chance in hell i'm gonna fail anything. I hope.

Let's talk, Muhaimin. You can tell at first contact that he's a very easy to communicate with kind of person. He's not shy around anyone for that matter. The only time he gets soft is around the ones he truly loves. Haha, i've seen him. How nice. Besides that, he's a terrific athlete. Physically, he looks skinny but packs a mean punch. Haha. Despite that, he's not the brightest player in a soccer match but he has his moments. (:

This is to you, old friend.

Let's dance

2009-09-10T22:48:00.002+08:00

Oh, oh, oh.
Sorry sorry. Baracuda practice has been wickedly fun the past two practices. Creating our own song is a really good bonding experience. Nice.

Ok. Fasting month is nearly completed. About a week left i think before Raya. I'm not gonna expect much this year as i did last year. Recession and all. Haiz..

Lastly, i'm bored. I can't sleep the whole day and then wake up at around 4 or so. It's getting tired.

Delirious

2009-09-01T14:48:00.003+08:00

To Ezan, Set ar!
Have you ever seen a grown man run from a kitten? Haha. I did. Funny stuff.
Ready for camp? Well, i'm getting packed. It's later on at 8pm so yea. If you can't contact me, you know why.
I'm bored and hungry. Oh wait, that's normal.

Lemons

2009-08-28T23:20:00.002+08:00

They say you should make lemonade when life gives you lemons.
Why should i?

Ok. Fasting has been going pretty good so far. No problems at least. It's good to be....well, good. I really don't like those people who look down on us. I know they're concerned and everything but we are not weak you know. Yea, i can't take the whole day without eating. I can do sports while i'm at it. I'm not gonna die or faint or whatever the reason you think i can't do normal activities. Haiz...It just ticks me off. Lucky for them, i'm in patient mode.

Next, rotting at home. Can't seem to find anything to do at home right now. Usually, i wake up at 12 noon and then start my day. It's been frustrating actually to wake up so late in the day. It feels incomplete. Like i'm missing something. Anyway, the first thing i'll do is try not to use the computer and go about my business. But then again, what business is there? There's nothing to do!!!

Ok, calm down. I think you have me mistaken.

I found out from a friend that having a blog is really pointless. I'm considering it.

learned

2009-08-24T22:46:00.002+08:00

I found out a phrase today.
"Not all pain is gain".

Sounds true to you? I guess. But tell me, which pain is not a gain? Maybe... I dunno. To me, having to go through a difficult time is to face a challenge. And by definition, a challenge is to be overcome. So yeah, overcome that difficult time. How? Be head strong, believe in yourself and have the right mind set.

Ok, ENGMEC paper is the last paper which was today! Finally, the holidays have arrived. I think it's gonna go down pretty well considering it's the fasting month. So yea, slack a lot starting now. First thing i did was head to town with the usual 7 but without J and Lester and including Jivan. Hah! Found some nice things which i'm so gonna buy once i have the money.

Check list: Bermudas, shirts, pencil box.

Sounds about right. Maybe i'll think of more things when the time comes.
Peace be upon you.

killer

2009-08-23T22:43:00.002+08:00

And i thought i didn't update.
Yet again, another person has stumbled onto this pathetic excuse for a blog. Oh well, more readers.

Saturday felt so depressing. Why? Because of ELTECH paper. I seriously could not do it. Maybe i managed to scrape some points but it felt so pathetic. I just froze, looking at the questions. Thinking if i'd done my tutorials, missed any lectures and what not. Haiz... Please...pass me!!

Ok, fasting month is getting off to a good start. 2nd day was spent studying and man, it felt good. Confident now that i'll pass the core module. Yee-ha!!!

Haha, ok. Hmm... Get me a fitness routine. I need to work out. My chest is killing me.

Stump

2009-08-19T20:58:00.001+08:00

Has it been good?
Yes, it has been. I'm just missing a few revisions for the upcoming exams but not to worry. I've got it covered, i hope. Worked out today with Jay and Lionel from 4-6pm and that's about it for today. Study tomorrow.

Bruce Lee once said, "people focus too much on improving their skill that they forget the physical conditioning required". I guess i'm starting to realize that point.

Until then,
Cheerios.

without sweets

2009-08-17T22:51:00.002+08:00

I am not without my patience.
Let's sum up the weekend first, shall we? Saturday was a killer on myself. Run up and down the flanks and i got myself dying on the sidelines. I am never doing that again. So i decided.....skipping 10 minutes a day. Tried it today and what do you know. It's tiring. Yeah..Haahaa. Anyway, it's for a good cause. I really need the stamina and plus, it keeps me fit. Come on everyone, let's start skipping!

Sunday was pretty much a lazy day. Went to mom's to indulge myself. Like totally....Chocolates and sweets. Pretty much everything i ate had sugar in it and that's why it was a lazy day. Young bro brought pizza home and again, indulge.... Well, i gotta. It's the final week before the start of Ramadhan or as you call it, the fasting month. I have a feeling this year is gonna be a breeze.

Today....Went to school for 2 hours of math and then met Debbie. The things that i'd like to tell her, i wish i could but... The stronger man does not win a fight but the one that can restrain his anger the most. I like that motto. Thank you Ezan.

Ezan said that i couldn't live a day without Korea related things running through my mind in a day. Well, it's almost true. I got hooked on Korea a few months back(Thanks to Ezan) and i kinda like it. It's got a rich culture and it's definitely interesting. Well, it's better than some cultures but i won't die if i don't get a daily dose of Korea. I just like it, that's all. Choi Soo Young...Hwaiting!!!

And to end it all....Exams are around the corner that i can see it rearing it's ugly head but what lies after that....Sweet holidays. I guess for once, the holidays have come at a right time and that is when school is out. I won't have to dread the days studying but i'll be rotting at home. We'll see what we can do about that.

Fadhil, Haha... Sunye is not for me.

Fool fool fool

2009-08-13T01:17:00.002+08:00

They created a word which means the impossible.
To even say it, people would say it doesn't exist. I don't see the point of it. Every time you say it, people are sure to doubt you. So much so as to say that there's nothing that is "that word". Ok, that was a big hint.

Hmm.. I guess today was an eye opener for me. 3 P.Y.Ts that i've seen today. All were too good to be true. I'd say perfect. Wow. I'm still getting goosebumps from it. Let's dream.

Sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry.
Cool move.

Haha ha

2009-08-10T23:09:00.002+08:00

Somebody, let me punch you.
It's been a long and quiet day. The dog did not bark, the birds did not sing. Even the karaoke was turned off. People slept. It rained. What have i done? Wasted my time.

It's a conspiracy when you wish your life was simple. By definition, what is simple? Not having to do work? Play all day? Enjoy? Who says you get to have it simple? People don't get it simple, they earn it. You pray for simple? See if you get it. Life is hard but who says the after life is anymore different.

Damn it. I'm thinking too much. I'm unable to hold things in at times. I can't control myself at times. I've never seen the outcome of me losing myself. Let me picture it. Hands stained with blood, someone's dead. Don't push it. It's good to kill. But there is a problem. I'm guilty now. Guilty of what? Murder? Heck, everyone has a death date and i'm doing a part to keep that date. Sounds good. Yeah...

If you've managed to read up till here, i congratulate you. Just some things i've been thinking of lately. I don't need listening ears or understanding hearts. I need minds that can agree. Still here? Congratulations again.

To whom it may concern,
Thank you

Down

2009-08-10T14:03:00.004+08:00

Sore throats these past few mornings.
I hate it. Yesterday went quite well. No, it's not because of National Day. It was because i got to spend time with the missed ones. Watched G.I Joe. 3/5 stars maybe? But sienna miller was freaking hot! Anyway, traveled to Orchard to shop until we finally settled down at Zingdo. Nice ice cream....mmmm.

google it

2009-08-08T23:22:00.003+08:00

I find karma a very non-logical thing.
Strike me down then. It's not karma, it's just what you believe it to be. It's the same case for numbers. People tend to make their own theories based on their own beliefs. The so called patterns that they see are merely made to their own liking. But then again, it makes sense that no one tags coz i don't tag others. Haha.

A psycho is what they call me. I don't despise it. I kinda like it. It's a unique way to characterize me and i'm different. Ok, i may burst out into something at times but i'm not crazy, just bored. You don't want to not talk for a very long period. It sucks!!

I won't be at home tomorrow, going out with the beloved and missed, Fadhil. Hehe. I really miss him.

Death bed

2009-08-06T18:46:00.002+08:00

No roses in this side of town.
I have a thought. I wanna cut my hair. It's long and irritating. And it get blown by the wind way too easily. Hmm.

Ok, this is the last week for CATS and S&W. Yay for CATS, boo for S&W. I really enjoyed street soccer. Now i need to work out at my own time. Which reminds me. I got a job down at the school gym. $6 per hour. Not bad eh? Haha.

Past few days have been rather...how should i put it. Compressed? Time is going by very fast. I still have some unfinished assignments in the form of web tutorials. Hey, they suck! I prefer work sheets. Then again, i prefer neither. But, it's a good way to get me studying otherwise i'd be slacking. So tomorrow, gonna have a study date with the guys. No gay stuff, please.

Alright, i guess that's it for today.
Keep me dreaming of you. It's great!

Munchkin

2009-08-01T23:09:00.002+08:00

Like the smallest things that happen so fast, they are said not to have happened at all.
I had a great game today. Ok, practice as Ezan puts it. It's not everyday i get to play soccer but wouldn't that be dreamy? Ok...To sum up the week, it was pretty swell. Quizzes here and there and that performance on Wednesday. Nothing special i guess.

I wonder about friends whom i have not kept in contact with. Are they still thinking about me? I guess not. Why would they? I mean, they have new friends now.

And lastly, i'm getting fed up with the school canteens now. Food is too expensive and soooooo not worth it. There are a few good ones here and there but imagine eating the same thing all the time. Besides, it's unhealthy junk. I won't die of high cholesterol levels or high blood pressure.

Let's see. Keeping fit is important to me. I don't care if no one likes me. As long as i'm healthier than someone and fitter than someone, i'm happy.

Blessings.

Flashes

2009-07-30T10:27:00.002+08:00

The people passing by provide a temporary satisfaction.
For i know i can never obtain.

Ok, yesterday's performance was....pathetic, lifeless, disgusting. Even though the seniors say we weren't that bad, i think we were that bad. Mistakes here and there. Failure in communication here and there. Haiz.. Let's not go there.

What i'm thinking about? My hands are numb. Djembe playing, by a beginner, results in internal bleeding as Sanjay puts it and numbing as Faizal puts it. Learn from the masters i shall and it should be better.

I'm hungry now. CATS mates have yet to arrive at rendezvous. Slaughter.

HD eyes

2009-07-29T06:19:00.001+08:00

We are but puppets.
Just a quick post before i head off to school. For the first time, the guppies of Baracuda Batucada will be performing later on at 2.45 pm. I'm nervous right now coz if we screw up, we've got to answer for it. Hey, i said no pressure. Not that it's gonna be easy. Well, the bright side is that i can skip class. Hey, it's a valid excuse okay.

Till then.

It's funny

2009-07-27T01:12:00.001+08:00

I heard a joke once.
Man goes to doctor. Says he's depressed. Says life is harsh and cruel. Says he feels all alone in a threatening world. Doctor says, "Treatment is simple. The great clown Pagliacci is in town tonight. Go see him. That should pick you up." Man bursts into tears. Says, "But doctor... I am Pagliacci." Good joke. Everybody laughs. Roll on snare drum. Curtains.

End of a week.

Look at the time

2009-07-26T03:57:00.000+08:00

It's almost 4 in the morning.
And me and Ezan are at McDonalds, slacking. Well, we did study for a while until the math question was freaking difficult. Watched the first part of coming soon before the internet went hay-wire. It feels weird using his laptop to blog. Feels different. And weird. Not doing anything right now. Exan is playing L4D on MY laptop. Bored and my leg's are sore. Ezan has red eyes.

I feel like eating even though i ate that double filet-o-fish. Doesn't feel satisfying enough. But, it was tasty, just not enough. It's also expensive. Maybe i should go to Ezan's for mee soto. Claimed to be very high in quantity. Haha

Guranteed

2009-07-23T23:38:00.002+08:00

The perverts of the city talking about their pornos.
I'm feeling a sense of satisfaction. No, i didn't win anything. I ate something. Haahaa. Yea, surprising. Past few weeks have been a killer. No, not the assignments. The food in NP sucks!!! Seriously nothing good to eat and what is good, isn't halal. Why?!!!

So i decided that finally, it was time to tantalize my taste buds. Went to Sakura restaurant, not the buffet one, and had dendeng fried kway teow. Mmmmm.....nice. It was spicy, sweet, delicious. Although, $4.50 seems like it's very much worth it. Mmmm....nice food. So one more day to suffer in school with bad food. And i have math test tomorrow which i doubt i'll have an easy time with.

Lastly, i would like to apologize to the dear readers of this blog. As of late, it has been going down the emo-train and yes, i have been talking to myself. I was just mad about something and thank god, i'm finally over it. i would like to thank my dear journal which i scribbled so hard on to relieve that anger. i would like to apologise to the readers once again. Truely, i am feeling much better now. Any inconvenience is regretted.

Now that that's off my chest, let me rest for it is a long day tomorrow.

It never would've made a difference

2009-07-19T23:19:00.002+08:00

The cancer stricken world is slowly coming to an end.
Final call to the leaders to agree on peace. But i guess now is not the time. Not yet.

This feeling of a need left unfulfilled. How frustrating. Never seems to stop. Maybe there isn't a need. Never a calling. Never longing. Hmm...insight.

Let's be realistic for a moment and behold the travesty that is my life. Projects still incomplete. Assignments are tutorials on a weekly basis. Still not complete. Time's a wasting. Get to work.

Conspiracy

2009-07-17T22:10:00.002+08:00

The aging whores and fat prostitutes.
Desperate homosexuals and disgusting horny bastards. They are nothing but decorations of the street. Just like the old tissue lady and screaming fruit vendor. I am getting tired of this life. Food is expensive, friends are useless and old photographs have imprints of bad memories. Maybe it's time to quit. Maybe my life is finished. I am going nowhere. Nowhere.

Time is ticking. I do not have much left. Assignment this, project that. The very education system is failing to provide to me. Money has been wasted, i have not benefited. It is a scam to to humanity's future. I am tired. The keys are spelling out the end.

Warm nights have been kind to me. I forget the sorrows. Forget the pains of day to day hardships. It is not easy. For whenever i have strength, i am not angry. I am angry, just not you that can see it.

trigger

2009-07-16T22:01:00.003+08:00

Sometimes i find friends redundant.
Sometimes life is being fair.
Sometimes time is slow.
Sometimes i'm depressed.
Sometimes i'm angry.
Sometimes i wanna punch someone so hard in the face their nose caves in.
Sometimes it's peaceful.
Sometimes people stare at me.
Sometimes i sing to myself.
Sometimes death is peaceful. I see myself dying in a lightning storm.
Sometimes i worry too little.
Sometimes i have a problem. I don't like problems.
Sometimes i'm a hero.
Sometimes i'm a killer.
Sometimes i'm a saint.
Sometimes i'm a hater.
Sometimes i'm imbalanced in the mind.
Sometimes i'm sarcastic.
Sometimes i'm feeling so low i feel like dying.
Sometimes i'm a homo.
Sometimes i'm anti-social.
Sometimes i get sick and recover too quickly.
Sometimes i'm stressed.
Sometimes i'm hard working.
Sometimes i imagine.
Sometimes i find it unnecessary to wake up.
Sometimes i wish for stuff.
Twice i've fallen.
Once my heart is broken.
Never have i cried.

hey, come on

2009-07-16T00:20:00.002+08:00

You can't win everything you know.
First of all, be prepared. You don't want to start a conversation with only a 'hi' in mind. Elaborate and stuff.
Secondly, open your mouth. If you're with people, it's a need.
Thirdly, don't laugh at the joke that you just made. It may not be funny.
Fourthly, don't interrupt when someone is speaking.
Lastly, don't talk crap!!!

Just a few things that i wanna get into my head; COMPRO written test, ELTECH formulas, ENGMEC formulas, EG1 formulas. God, it sucks when you need to keep referring to things. Just for one thing, you go through 2-4 other irrelevant others to get there. Haiz... really bothersome.

And yea, i stopped tying my hair. I see what damage has been done to my hair. My precious.... It's kinda twirling upwards on the side which is really sucky. Makes it look like a woman's haircut. Then again, i'm starting to think twice about keeping my hair. I really feel the need to cut it. Haiz.... We shall see.

bitter

2009-07-14T17:23:00.001+08:00

After school feast leaves bad feel in stomach.
Lips sticky from egg white. Throat warm from milo. Nose is blocked with something. Been going on for at least 2 days now.

Painkillers

2009-07-12T19:20:00.002+08:00

Panadols never tasted so sweet.
I guess i should give them my thanks for getting rid of the headaches and pains. I'm feeling very much better now. I guess i should ask myself. Why aren't i dead? I mean, it is swine flu. Or was it? Well this wasn't the first time.

Back in the SARS period, i caught a very bad fever. Much like this one but worse. Then another time during Hari raya. Stayed in bed for 3 days i think. Really couldn't walk. Another time was during secondary school or some time i can't really pinpoint. I felt so sick that i slept in the toilet. And yea coz i had to use the toilet.

I guess i should be thankful you know. Each time i recover, i think about what would've happened if i weren't so lucky. What happens then? Well, i was hoping something epic would come out of this experience but no, not really epic. I have one last question. Should i quarantine myself? My fever hass gone down but i still have that runnning nose of my mine and a slight sore throat. But no coughs or nausea. Eh, i'll just come anyway. Be the irresponsible bastard.

Hmm, because of this 'metamorphosis', i spent my weekend at home. Pretty much sweating my ass off in a jacket and a blanket. Can't really describe the amount of sweat so i won't. Hmph.

Let's look forward to school shall we and a speedy recovery.

Happiness is always better than despair

2009-07-09T23:33:00.002+08:00

When you're feeling down, look up.
I didn't realise that it would occur to me that i'd remember what happened. But that's all in the past. Hmm, s&w was alright for today. Winning streak so that means i'm improving and that's good. After that went out with great friends and spent some quality time. I'm still hungry after burger king.

Ok, important part. I need to limit my spending on food. I'm indulging myself in junk and other non-necessities. It's really wasting my money. It's not like i have a million to spend you know so yeah, i gotta save.

Appetizing

2009-07-07T23:37:00.002+08:00

Killer prata from canteen 3.
It doesn't look like much but it's actually enough to fill you up. The comfort zone for me would be 1 and a half of it maybe? But it's oily, maybe too oily. Oh well.

Big presentation tomorrow and group hasn't finished the project yet. So yea, we'll see how that turns out. Baracuda practice tomorrow too. But you see, I need to dress smart for ECPRO. Wouldn't it be weird to play instruments in a suit? Haha. And don't forget the possible tie.

Breaks

2009-07-05T22:37:00.002+08:00

I wished my heart would break.
And i got it. Ah, satisfying. Now i'm free from whoever is trapping me in their constant control or routines. I'm tired of that. Tired of pampering and obsessions. I don't know what the hell i'm saying.

Anyway, i almost forgot that i posted earlier today. But now i'm gonna post again.
I seriously need someone to drag me out of my house when i'm bored. I don't want to rot. It's not pleasurable. Please, take me anywhere.

Loud music hurts my ears when it's not a nice song (:

Definition of failure

2009-07-05T17:25:00.003+08:00

I wonder what to fail is.
Is it when you can't live up to expectation that you fail?
Is it when you can't achieve something that you fail?
Is it just losing that you fail?

I hate it. I don't like it. Haiz...
Moving on.

Dream journal hasn't been coming along very well. I decided to start a journal to record my dreams but then there's this problem. Who the hell wakes up and remembers their dream exactly? Also because it's troublesome to an extent. Maybe they'll make a dream recorder machine one day but until then, let's try the journal.

4th of July, Independence of a nation. So yea, just something for you to know. Guess which country. Get a choc bar.

In other news, swine flu has infected Singapore. Like, finally! I thought it'd never come. I mean, why shouldn't it? It's inevitable. On an interesting note, most of my friends don't mind catching the disease. Maybe coz it isn't serious? Well, not yet it isn't.

Well, have a nice day. Don't knock yourself up.

I think, i think

2009-07-02T20:25:00.002+08:00

I think my ankle is dislocated.
I'm not so sure but it's moving in a weird way and it's able to take some weird positions. I gotta get that checked out. Maybe this is why it's been hurting. Haiz... Since that sprain. I knew that crack was something strange. Know of any good reflexologist or whatever they call it. If not, the polyclinic it is.

Ok, something else that's bothering me. I'm eating when i'm not hungry and i'm not eating when i am hungry. It's really messed up. Solution anyone?

CUT!

2009-07-02T01:32:00.002+08:00

The suspense was killing me.
I am so thankful to Allah and the seniors for allowing my journey with Baracuda Batucada to continue. Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you.

On another note, I did pretty ok for common tests. No fails so that's good. Well, let's just elaborate on practice today. When i received the sms for today's practice, i got real worried coz of the words "final" and "cut". It was almost like not wanting to come coz i didn't want to know the result or get cut myself but i went anyway coz i love the cca. The seniors seperated us into 2 groups and then pairing us up, i was with Farhan. So they explained how it was gonna go down and until Cheryl and Ain went down, the seniors reshuffled us into three groups.

I was gonna get teary-eyed when everyone started hugging each other and myself but i didn't. I held it in. Then came the surprise. " You have all made the band". The initial reaction was "HAH?!", literally. No one was celebrating or anything, just stoned. I was really really really stoned coz Faizal, the better musician, had been called out and didn't return. I was confused why he didn't make the band. Then came the other surprise.

Cheryl and Faizal walking into the room again. It was really surprising. I don't know how many times i've used that word. So yea, we are Baracuda Batucada now.

Hmm...What else

It's just a dream

2009-06-28T16:15:00.000+08:00

Ever had one of those dreams where everything goes your way?
Well, i did. It was more than great. It was the best time of my life. Haha. Maybe you'll get it some day. Also, there are those dreams where you feel like everything is so real. Like you think it's really gonna happen later on in your life that you take extra precautions in case it does happen. There are at times the ones where you're watching a story unfold. One thing leads to another.

I wonder what it all means.

Change

2009-06-24T12:47:00.000+08:00

Renewed my blog skin.
Hope you like it. Although, it doesn't have that blogger bar at the top. Anyone know how to change that?
Well, glad that it hasn't been weeks since my last post. Alright, 4E5 chalet. Can't say it was the best chalet i've been to but that's only coz i came at midnight on the 2nd night so yea, not much.

And one other bummer. Malaysia trip cancelled coz of swine flu and stuff. Let's just hope we get through this pandemic. Luckily, we're watching a movie later on. Next outing will be with the seniors of Baracuda. A bbq in fact. So i'll be looking forward to that.

Sorry if this wasn't interesting enough.
It's not my fault.

all the world's....

2009-06-22T03:47:00.001+08:00

That's Debbie everyone. The sweetest girl you'd ever meet. Funny how i met her on a bus. She was Khairi's friend and so was i and that's how we knew each other. Debbie is very much a lady and....hmm...
Well, glad i know her. Till December then huh?

I'm not done yet

2009-06-20T23:45:00.000+08:00

Dinner with friends at Sakura buffet.
And i gotta say, i can still eat. Haha. Mmmm...unagi...
Well, glad that it wasn't a sausage fest.
After the dinner, the guys got toxified so yea...i don't drink.
Went home after that.

Tag replies
->xcfg : Don't read if it's boring
->DEBBIE : Linked
->Fadhil : I'll try my best to keep this blog alive. Depends uh. I feel like there's an easier way.
->Dayu : Hello old mate. Go chalet uh?

failure to revive

2009-06-18T17:03:00.000+08:00

This blog is going nowhere.
Seriously, i don't feel like blogging anymore

Apologies

2009-06-13T21:44:00.000+08:00

I sincerely apologize to those following this blog.
Sorry that i have not been updating this blog but it's only because i don't have time to post stuff. It could be also coz of nothing that may not interest you or simply coz i can't be bothered to post every single thing that happens in my life. So, sorry about that.

To kick off things, holidays have arrived. Sadly, it's only two weeks but i think it's sufficient rest. You wouldn't want to come back to school rusty. However, i'm busy almost everyday for the 2nd week. Lets see...

20th June - Dinner with T1G4
21st - 23rd June - 4E5 chalet
22nd June - Baracuda Batucada bbq
24th & 25th June - Malaysia visit
27th June - Matt's chalet

That's one hell of a schedule. Other than that, i have practice on Monday and Wednesday next week so, get some other day if you wanna go out.

I'm thinking, i'm thinking

2009-05-30T00:32:00.000+08:00

Pretty much nothing to do but study right now.
God, i really find myself to be very bad in education. I mean, i don't study at home but in school. That's not really gonna help. haiz...

Sore in the morning

2009-05-20T07:30:00.000+08:00

Waking up to sore throats in the morning.
Bummer but luckily, i have the antidote. A perfect antidote. Well, it's just medicine.

Moving on. I don't think the chronology of this blog matches my time area. It's 7.31A.M now but the timing on the blog should indicate something else. Anyway, got up early for school today. Don't want to be missing any COMPRO lectures. Trust me. I've been there. Haha. And secondly, there's no Baracuda practice today. Another bummer. Perhaps gaming sessions with the guys later on.

Also, i've been having problems with engineering mechanics. The teacher is...ugh. Very hard to comprehend what he's saying and i doubt everyone gets the subject. Maybe except for Benjamin and Wai kit. Maybe i should start reading the book. There's a quiz on it today and i'm less than confident that i'll do well. Bummer...

Lastly, the food here sucks. By here i mean NP. Nothing good to eat. There's a lot of vvariety but the quality is very moderate and nothing special. I guess i'm being very picky but that's how i am these days. I don't find anything nice. Not even chocolates! Weird huh?

short

2009-05-12T08:58:00.000+08:00

Seeing as how my classmates are late....
Just a short one before class starts. Baracuda practice yesterday wasn't soo bad. Because it was too awesome! Haha. Really hope that i get selected but like the senior said, being 20+ of the 300 that auditioned, it's already an achievement that we made to the 2nd round of auditions. I feel so good about myself for that.

Ok, class is starting soon. Well, it already did. gotta go.

restart

2009-05-08T21:16:00.000+08:00

Well, it's been a while.
I'd like to welcome myself back to blogging. It's been days since my last post and i'm quite happy to know that i haven't forgotten about this. There is never a day where i don't visit this page but what the heck. So, i guess i should update about my progress.

School: Hmm...What can i say? It's almost perfect. Note; almost. I've made plenty of new friends and i'm glad i did. Feels good just walking around and saying hi to almost everyone. Hehe. Other than that, i've been able to cope with my studies so far except for ELTECH. How i wish i'd taken physics back in secondary school. And who says you'd suffer in poly without A Math? I'm doing fine or maybe because the difficulty hasn't elevated. Hmmm.. Still waiting on the confirmation of my cca. Tried out for Baracuda Batucada, a percussion group, and they have yet to call so i'm getting worried. If that doesn't work out, there's tons of other ccas out there. Thank god. And i love my sports and welness program, street soccer!

Work: Nothing much to say here coz i've quit my job. That's right, I Q-U-I-T! Maybe i'm exaggerating the truth. I didn't actually quit or resign. I just didn't turn up for work. Considered an MIA, i'm planning on going back to return my uniform and get me my $20. Hey, it's still a deposit. I expect a lecture from my boss and i'm not gonna care much coz my studies come first and then family. Work falls after religion. Haha.

Family: Hmmm..My grandma's in the hospital. Enough said.

Friends: Can't say that i don't have 'em. Ok, so i'll talk about saturday which is game day on a weekly basis. Turn up for a friendly against some of the folks and go home. It's not much but it keeps me busy on a lazy day. And yeah, those that i haven't spoken to in a while, let's hope we do hear from each other again. I miss u guys and gals. Oh yea, there's a class chalet that falls on June. Not sure about the date and cost but i'm definitely gonna be there. Hope it goes well.

So...i've said all there is to be said. Good night.

Low poker

2009-04-25T00:00:00.000+08:00

Ah......
Barely sound the same with my current voice. Reason? Dance party. I don't know if it was great or good or bad but i did enjoy myself. Dancing the night away. I even forgot i was hungry. Haha. Dance, dance and dance was all did except for the occasional sing-a-longs and screaming. Haha. Well, i still enjoyed myself.

Tomorrow is what i'm looking forward to. Games day for ambassadors! Wee. Hope i do make it to the group. And i'm thinking of quitting my job. It's so cumbersome when i have to revisit my work place. Even if it's for the income, i don't think it's worth it. Next week will also be soccer and Baracuda batucadas try outs. So excited and confused.

That is all. Sweet dreams

Dance 4 funD

2009-04-23T23:09:00.000+08:00

Congrats to all the dancers for giving it their all.
Np is starting to grow on me despite the classes which have taught me very little this past week. But something like a dance event can change my whole mood and i like that. Hehe. Followed Jivan to convention centre coz he was forced by Jolene to watch her dance. Haha, ok, so i followed. Besides, wanted to see Fazrul dance as well. The dance off was cool though it lacked some energy but the crowd support was superb. Only thing was the usher gave us the wrong section to sit in. Ended up sitting in MDE division instead of ME. Haiz...

Alas, MDE division was the winner with ME as runner up and FMS as 2nd runner up. Oh well, the seniors did a better job but hey, that's freshmen for you. Ended with music and people cheering. Helped myself to some finger food before heading home with Syafiq.

And something else, for sports & wellness(S&W), i'm taking street soccer. Cool huh? Although i wished i'd have taken up something different. Oh well, no turning back now

Fruitful

2009-04-20T23:21:00.000+08:00

Wow, good.
First day of semester was better than i thought. Of course, these are only first days. I think there will come a time where....NO! It won't come to that. Anyways, i'd say today was better than the orientation day, which wasn't as fruitful as today. Why, you ask? Because i made more friends today, i interacted more and the people were outspoken. No offense. Ok, had lessons, or should i say lectures, hehe and they're not so bad. Just one of the classes where i nearly fell asleep but thank god i didn't. The class isn't bad too coz no one is so shy as to not speak up when they are in doubt....or are they?

Anyway, after that, i travelled all the way to Tampines mall(OMG!) to meet Ezan and my ex-assistant manager. Chit-chatted for a while and got treated to a grilled cajun chicken with large ice lemon tea. Thanks!! Went home straight after that coz i suddenly felt tired. Very weird. And i can't believe i brought my laptop all the way from home to school to TM and then back home. Man!

Plans

2009-04-18T01:20:00.000+08:00

Suddenly i have it all figured out.
What i'm gonna do in poly, in life, in future. This is getting out of hand. I'm gonna have too much on my plate that i won't even notice it.
Okok, so let me revise it with you.

In poly, i'm still gonna keep my job, although work will be cut down to once a week(Saturday). Work on weekdays and mom's gonna kill me. Still, i get the money. Not much but still money.
I was thinking of becoming an ambassador of NP; people who organize and plan things, speak at events. Haha, cool idea. Why? Coz i wanna meet people, do that something eXTrA(copied slogan) haha.
I wanna join soccer. Not just a sports related CCA but soccer! I don't care if the team sucks or not, i'm still gonna try out. Last time i joined a sports related CCA, turned out to be very boring. So why shouldn't i do something i love?
I'm gonna keep my laptop clean of music, movies and pictures. Whatever that's not related to studies won't be in the com. Brenthat doubts i'll keep this up but we'll see. Why i'm doing this? Coz studies comes first then family then friends then money. Hehe.

I think that's about all. Ok so maybe it's not so into the future but it still is an important turning point in my life. Right?

tag replies

2009-04-13T01:08:00.000+08:00

Ivan: You told me already. Twice. Today was the 2nd time.
Suhaidi: Good, i'm spreading a disease.
Hajjar: The pleasure is mine.
David Santos: Whoever you are, Stay cheerful. I just hope you're not gonna be a problem.

Classes

2009-04-13T01:01:00.001+08:00

The world doesn't need to be better.
When i think about it, what separates the poor from the rich, the fat from the thin, the ugly from the beautiful. It's the differences they carry. What if everyone was beautiful?, then nobody is. It's true you know when you see the big picture. Let's say everyone is rich, then what the hell do we need money for?

Let's change the topic. I enjoyed today, looking at Hooter girls. Haha. Wei Sheng, remember to keep your damn mouth shut when you walk by. Haiz... And i don't get why some people have to break bad news to me in a bold fashion. For example, would you like to hear someone tell you, "hey, i'm fucking your mom tonight". Anyone with a 'yes' in their mind? No right? Because it affects you in some way. Some people....

Lastly, again, i'm hating poly. Nothing seems to be going right. Just when i thought it's settled, it comes back to bite me in the ass. Can't a guy get a break? Haiz... I'm just praying very hard that everything will be sorted out soon. No more problems and demands from people that have already gotten what they want. And i won't be spending so much come Monday.

Yipeekayay

2009-04-09T15:48:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Siti Maisarah Bellamy Hajjar!

Ok, now that's taken care of, i'd like to say a few words.
Hajjar is:
Nice
Smart
Not very sporty
Not shallow at all
Humble

Well, she's kinda like Brentha but without that much energy but that's good. Haha.

Moving on, Off day today so i get to do what? Stay home, play games with Ezan....Again!!! But it's good, i mean, we don't get to do this everyday and besides, we don't play soccer anymore considering that everyone is busy with this or that. Other thatn that, i'm starving inside my own house. Maybe it's time to put aside petty dislikes of vegetables.

COME ON!

2009-04-07T00:33:00.000+08:00

Gracious.
I don't have the mood for anything anymore. But right now, keeping myself busy is important because at any time, i could give in to temptations. Hmm... i missed soccer on Saturday coz i had to work! Crap man, i mean i wanted to get off work to rest at home. Haha, but either way i would've missed soccer. Haiz.. So sorry Muhaimin, Hajjaz and Kishore.

Gaming session tomorrow with Ezan. Crazy guy is willing to get up at 9 in the morning to play Fifa 09 at my house. What the hell! But that's ok. Haven't had soccer with him in a while. What's more, he's got the whole day to himself, no work. Nevermind, mine is on Thursday but even on an off day, i'm attending meetings. Ok, not exactly a meeting. Kishore needs to pay me! and the rest is history.

Ugh...Work is taking it's toll on me and upcoming poly season will start so i don't know if i can juggle both. However...however, i need a source of income. Somehow, i get the worst vibes whenever poly is mentioned. Why? Becuase it's been hell for me. For god's sake i don't even have my laptop yet. Why? Because retardo loans and letters, submission of this and that. Haiz... Not really liking this.

Despise

2009-04-04T01:11:00.000+08:00

Lame la Fadhil.
Ok, so i had to attend orientation for my course today and man did it suck. Emcees were a bit..umm how should i say it? Don't know, can't be bothered. But the whole morning i was there, my stomach kept grumbling. What a relief it was when it came time for lunch. But the worse thing is the people from my section or should i say course. Most of them were guys! I can't live like this! Ugh... Luckily i managed to make one friend, malay. His name is Nazrul, at least i think that's how it's spelt. His face reminds me of michael jackson. So weird. Haha. Anyway, they gave us some things to think about like why are we here and stuff and expectations. Why was i there? Coz it was compulsary. If it were up to me, i wouldn't have gone and just compelete my three years and get my diploma. Job well done.

After that headed on to work where miracles happen. I got counter for the whole day. Not bad when i think about it but currently, there's too much drama looming in the workplace. I don't find it very comfortable. But it gets the bills paid. Hehehe. As if!

Other than that, i have nothing else. Goodbye.

Still no notebook. Curse you enrolment!!!

Brentha

2009-03-25T00:49:00.000+08:00

First of all.

Happy Birthday Brentha Tamilarasu!

Hmmm, So Brentha and i only knew each other only in 4th year when i was forced to sit beside her. I don't know why and what happened but we just clicked. Despite the many reverses in our likes or dislikes, we still stuck together. Kinda paradoxical when you think about it. She's the smarter and more hardworking one and i'm the...well, not so. Still, when we start talking, it just doesn't matter. Even though sometimes we quarrel, be it about petty stuff or the more serious stuff, it doesn't take long till we get on even grounds again. Needless to say, i'm glad i met her.

Some things about her.
She's short(Haha)
Likes hot guys like Robert pattinson, Paul walker etc
Fan of the king of pop
Studies very hard for her future
Not very sporty when you think about it
Sarcastic at times
Very truthful
Caring

Ugh..getting too mushy.

Recap

2009-03-22T13:24:00.000+08:00

Where was i on the 17th t0 19th march?
I was having the time of my life at the chalet with my closest friends. Glad that it was a success despite some off track schedules. Haha. It's these kinds of things that i don't elaborate on coz it's just unexplainable.

One of the many card sessions

From left to right: Muhaimin, Chee Kiat, Fadhil

From left to right: Matt, Nawi, Raj, Boon Kiat, Jacob, Leon, Syafiq

Thanks a lot for those who attended including Wei Sheng and Angella.

Gosh it

2009-03-17T10:56:00.000+08:00

Ugh..i'm near broke.
So Sunday class was cancelled and went out with Ezan to Bugis. so much for cheap bargains. Spent $120 on Topman bermudas and another $60 on HMV shirts. Haiz... Left with $60 for chalet today. I know that's not gonna be enough so need to carefully consider what i spend on. Sorry guys!

So i bought two bermudas from Topman, one costs $80+ the other $40 something coz of the %40 off on second item. After that walked around aimlessly around Marina and Town area. Ezan bought more than me coz he got a freaking $500++ for his pay. But that's ok. I'm not bothered. After that saw some cool shirts at HMV and bought 2 of em'.

What else is on my mind....Oh yea. Eyes. Do you really believe that they are the window to the soul of a person? I'm not so sure but this person i know, obviously a girl, has eyes that make you feel so at peace. I don't know if it means anything but her eyes say so many things that don't reflect herself. As in, her eyes don't fit. Ok, enough. I'm sounding a bit psychotic.